Days of da week!!

well da days of da week have bin confusin me dis week lol..on tuesday i thort it was wednesday so i thort i started l8 da next day but i started early n 2day its thursday but it feels lyk tuesday!! haha messd up brain!!

wow so i had 3 mocks this week!! well total disaster is all i can say!!
had chem section A on monday n dint go 2 it..jus went hm
had chem secton B on tuesday lol n i bunked dat too..but i went canteen at lunch n Erica saw me ( my chem teacha)

Erica: Where were u 2day?
Me (in total shock!): um I-I um I had an appointment!” haha luckily she dint ask wot 4..
Erica: so y weren’t u der yday in john’s lesson
Me: oh I wasn’t feelin well
Erica: I tink u were bunkin both weren’t u?
Me: No, I wasn’t..i really wasn’t well..
Erica: hmm ok
Me: so should I come 2 workshop n do it?
Erica: no im not der 2day. Wot frees u gt?
Me: A and F
Erica: ok I’ll arrange something with John n u can do it 2mw
Me: ok then thanks.

End of scene lol so den I gt a free ye so im in da library doin some chem revision n she comes n she;s lyk I got good news 4 u..u can do it in F code 2day!! so I ended up doin it yday n totally failed it..on top of that I gt a 0 4 my chem lesson attendance n I missed a free!!! Can u believe it??
The moral of the story > don’t bunk but if u do..DONT GET CAUGHT!!!

So dats chemistry, maths was ok cos I had da paper 4m mahmood uncle lol so I worked on it on da wkend n then on Tuesday I was ok cos I already knew da answers…but I’ve decided dat 4 my next maths mocks which is on Monday im not gonna cheat..i wanna actually c wot I can do.. =D..

Oh me n my sis r kinda talking now but she still hasn’t apologised…ima jus havta 4get bout it..

Anova ting..i haven’t seen my bapa n uncle in aages..well dats wot it feels lyk although I saw him last week on Tuesday..but we dint go on Saturday cos he was tired n even yday he was tired so we dint go..he been goin out a lot n my uncles bin keeping him busy..but hopefully see him on Saturday..

more problems!

NOOO i jus wrote dis whole post n it all gt deleted...will do it wen i cum bak 4m 2tion now...

Edit: k well u can guess dat i dint get bak 2 dis as quick as I hoped..

but basically wot i was sayin was dat everythin got sorted with my mum..it took longa dan i thort cos i was gna apologise lyk 10min l8r but my ova sis sed sumtin so i was tryin 2 avoid goin bak 2 my living room cos every1 was der n i knew my dad wud say sumtin n den id cry so den i jus went 2 bed...on monday i bought my mum millie's cookies :D n we talked n it was all kl...

i dint talk 2 my sis 4 da last 2 weeks cos blah blah blah u kno all da stuff dat i sed in da last post...n all dat...bridal showa came n went...she chucked us out da hse n dis god knows wot..da food dint taste all dat gd..but im ova it now..

so den last wk was suki’s weddin n my sis was off 4m wrk 4 da whole week so yea had loadsa fun at hm (!) (btw dats sarcasm) she ignored me so I ignored her n gt on wit my stuff! I ended up goin 2 da mandwo n da weddin although da weddin was on a kushali so I was lyk im goin kushali not wedding…but she did look really nice..she was wearin a lengah so not da traditional sari but it was really nice..white n da skirt was lyk barehlo n da top was simpler so looked nice..but lol she wasn’t walkin like a bride..she was walkin normally but still yea it was a gd nyt…

da lecture was all bout how u shudnt have fights or “rifts” between family members n all dat n my sis had da nerve to come up2 me in front of my mum n ova sis n say wit a big fat grin on her face “aryt sid?” n she wasn’t sayin it seriously but as a joke so I just ignored her..n den she goes 2 my mum “I tried so its not my fault nemore!” I was lyk she shouted at me n den she tinks she can b my frend n all dat by jus makin a jk n not even apologisin!! She shouted at me cos she heard da wrong ting n den was lyk to me “oh don’t yell me jus cos u sed da wrong ting!” but I actually sed da ryt ting n she wasn’t listenin 2 me so I was lyk fuk it I dnt care nemor!! N I jus ignored her!!

p.s. da wedding was on Sunday which is da day afta I started dis post lol so don’t get confused!

H8age

im not lykin myself jus now..i tink i actually h8 myself!

I bin rude 2 my mum n i dint even realise it at the time...basically my sis went 2 wembley just now (as in at lyk 5oclock) to get a sari 4 her best friend's weddin which is in 3 weeks...n she took my mum, dad n my ova sis wanted 2 go as well...n wot i cant believe is that my nani passed away only 50 days ago (just ova 1 n half months) n she gettin ready to celebrate n go da full shebang 4 a wedding!! i mean i get dat she dint cry cos mayb she jus not da typ 2 cry in front of ppl so den mayb she did cry but we dnt kno bout it....but she actually bought new clothes n a sari n everythin!! n i tink dats y im mad at her..as well as all da ova reasons i sed earlier on 2day..

n so when dey came bak my mum came n gave me dis suit so i was lyk wots dat 4? n she goes u, so i was lyk yea woteva n den jus continued doin wot i was on da computer...n i know i hurt her feelings...cos it turns out its a present 4 my islamic bday which is on tuesday n cos of all da tings goin on i 4got bout it but she actually remembered! n i feel lyk sucha ungrateful, spiteful bitch! n i h8 dat....

n now my sis sittin hea preparin 4 da bridal showa!! :@

u kno all dis is makin me swear so much..even if its in my head but its makin me even more moody cos she not even aware of wot she doin cos dats how dumb she is! n me being moody gives me a moody look on my face n den im rude 2 every1! :( n it makes my mum sad n dats makes me feel even worse!!

Tensions!!!

k so we tryinta organise a nyt out 2 celebrate my cuzs bday wich was on 5th nov..every1s bz on 1 wkend or anova so we gna havta go witout sum ppl...n it always ends up bein me n fizz having 2 organise everytin cos every1 lazy so ive decided dis tym not 2 get involved..if im told a place n tym den i'll cum but ovawys i dnt care...

n my whole family tinks im not talkin 2 my sis Saj cos its her best friends weddin wich dusnt make sense cos wots da reason 4 me not talkin 2 her? its jus a weddin! but im actually not talkin 2 her cos she always puts her friends b4 her family n im sik of it! she takes advantage of my rentz n it takes da piss! last nyt we went 2 visit my bapa as we do on saturdays...n at at lyk 11 / 11.30 she was askin my mum "can we go hm now?" (cos she wrkin 2day so she sed she was tired!) so i gt angry n i told her so in front of my mum n dad n hueva else cud hear dat wen she goes out wit her friends she dont sit der n say she wnts 2 go hm even wen she wrkin! last tym she went all da way 2 leicester 2 visit her married friend hu now has a baby! n it was only girls in da car n my dad dont lyk it dat its only girls on da motorway l8 at nyt n wot tym dus she cum hm?? past midnyt!! n dats happend twice!! :@ do u c da hypocrisy or woteva its calld?? she so 2faced!

she's taken lyk sooo many days off 2 help 4 da weddin n she gna b practically livin ova der so i told her 2 jus move in! i mean my rentz r gna b up at midnyt waitin 4 her 2 cum hm n she aint gna care...she'll jus flounce in at 1am n den go straight 2 bed!! no thanx or netin!!

oh n top of dat my family tink im being unfair 2 her n being da horrible moody cow on PMT dat i am..supposedly! :@

Hafsa's bday!!

on wednesday 1st nov sum of us went shoppin 2 get hafu her bday prezi!! we went harrow obviously lol n roamed around lyk sooo many shops...

at 1 point we were in argos n we witnessd an almost robbery!! hehe yep its tru! sum1 was tryinta steal batteries 4m argos!!! n were lyk 2cm away 4m him!!! he had lyk hundreds in a carrier bag n den when da ppl came 2 get him he goes "here, im goin now ok?..i dint take em out the shop ok, let me go, please?" n den dey took him out bak n der was a big argument n we cud hear shoutin lol...

n i lost my pink n black scarf!! :( was so sad!!! i was hot so took it off 4m around my nek n hung it ova my bag n den wen we were walkin it musta fallen or bin stolen..i dno if st annes has lost property but i doubt i'll find it!! it was sooo nice!!!

lol k so yea we gt hafsa a bag, perfume, jewellery, bag charm n a wallet. lol WOW sooo much hehe...but thank gd she luved em all..da bag was jus gorgeous!! sid gt dat on thurs so i dint c it until hafsa did lol..we gave her da stuff on friday wit a cake, card n balloon. da cake was delish, chocolate, chocolate n more chocolate!! took loadsa pix n had a propa hijabi bday lol jkz man..

Chalismo for my nani

40 days afta my nanima died was on thursday 2nd november 2006.

aunty baiji, uncle amir n kulsum, aunty raziya n uncle murtaza, n ali lila, fatima n salma came to london for the chalismo..there were majlises held at many jamaats around the world so that ppl didnt feel they hadnt been somewhere. Ali lila, fatim n salma r stayin at our house :D cute lil baby.. but every1 will be going bak home soon...

i went bak 2 college afta half term on mon 30th oct...on monday n tuesday nyt der was qur'an khani at msq where ppl came, recited half a sipara or more or less..however much they wanted n den went...

on wednesday da family did khatmul qur'an for all the qur'ans dat were recited for my nani.

on thursday there was majlis at kabrastan at 2pm n den majlis at nyt in the mosque...there were lots of people at both places and at kabrastan there were petals scattered over my nani's grave so that when ppl came it would look nice..

fortunately it was grade review day so i dint havta bunk of college...i shud have only hadta go in for 10min but as usual helen took her time..she ignored me for half an hr (n im not exaggeratin it was 4m 11 till 11.30 dat i was sittin on dat stupid slow library computa!) n den wen she came 2 c me i was dun in 15mins. so i was lyk ok dats kl i can go hm now...but i had told me sista 2 go do her errands n den cum bak n pik me up...she took half an hr wen she sed "i'll b der in 10 min"!!! if she had said half hr i cuda sed ok n den walkd 2 harrow or sumtin, i wuda bin fyn...but she made me wait 4 half hr n den didnt even apologise when she gt der..she actually shouted at ME!! so i was lyk f**c it n got mad at her!

on sunday we went brookwood kabrastan...took a lil picnic lol n had a lil majlis der...hadta leave at 10am!! but left 45min late lol cos was too bz eatin yummy fresh bread for brekki!! uncle murtuza's rental care got 2 punctures somehow so we were waitin at da end for lyk 1hr cos 3 diff ppl came n all sed sum1 else hasta cum n it turns out da 1st man came bak cos he hadta fix it!!

oh n salma n fatima hav gone 2 fatima's cuzins place n i miss salma baby!!! n she still in da country lol!! its not lyk i was wit her a lot coz im not gd wit babies until dey a lil olda lyk maybe 10months or someting lol but still she sooo cute n adorable!!!

Oct 2006

Beginning of da month all da hijabis went for iftar…even tho half of us weren’t fasting lol…n can u guess whre we went?? KEBABLAND!! Hehe our local hangout…was so stuffed lol n just bout managed 2 finish it…but sum still had space 4 chocolate cake!! Lol lucky them, it looked gorgeous!! Loadsa fun n pix..got da 114 bak wit sabira..changed 2 da h19 n was hm in time 2 go msq lol…

Had loadsa tests in october cos they needed sumtin 2 giv us half term grades from…chem. tests n bio tests n math tests!! Failed most lol also met eileen carey da admin person, n she jus took dwn basic info, lasted all of 5 minutes!

Did aamal on 19^th 21^st n 23^rd nyt….ppt 4 da kids upstairs..n we had pizza 1 day 2 break our fasts!! hehe my sis was soo hungry she was screamin at da kids n she NEVA screams!! stayed 4 100 rakaat namaaz on all 3 nyts but neva actually prayed on ne lol…1^st nyt I wanted 2 recited quran, 2^nd nyt da guy messd up n da 23^rd nyt I had quran 2 read n was bein lazy…read 10 siparas in da month….had a jagani nyt on da 23^rd 4 jawshan e kabeer lol der was lyk 8ppl outta 10 reciting n one of da ova ppl was shezi..n my sis ses she wants 2 b part of our family hehe tru tru….

Our 2^nd bday of da yr was zayyan’s!! not as big as zeinabs but still fun…gt her a balloon but no cake cos ramadhan so every1 fastin! Ms cool dusnt lyk hugs n even on her bday wudnt accept 1 4m any of us!!

den came half term came n da debate of when eid was…it ranged from Sunday to Wednesday lol….n stanmore lot did it on da last possible day..wednesday..on da eid nyts did sum kl activities wit da kids…n aamenah somji lol my cute lil frend gave me a card sayin “I luv u” awww

wasnt celebratin eid so jus stayed at hm...made nankhatai n my bapa luved em :D!

Sept 2006

last tym i wrote i said college had started n its bin really bz..loadsa tings hav happened n jus havent had time to cum n blog...i always leave it for soo many months n den wen i do get a chance to blog its not enuff tym 2 recap it all...so 2day ima recap n den hopefully will be more frequent...

so went on my bio field trip on da tues 6th n wed 7th of sept...hated it lol nah wasnt dat bad but i was all by myself..every1 was on da ova trip n me being da idiot dint change my dates..so had lyk loong trips to wales n bak reallly really early in da mornin!! had crappy pizza on da 1st nyt der wich dint look cooked n had extra oil on top but a luvly cheesecake for dessert!! got my foot soaked n nearly fell as well cos dint hav wellies! but all was ok, shared a room wit maruj..and gt woken up by carol in da mornin lol altho i was already awake cos maruj woke up early!! den on da 2nd day we went 2 da sand dunes which was lyk a half hr trek away 4m our bus n sooo long!!! n had disgustin cheese sandwiches 4 lunch 4m da centre...n sum sort of english samosa lol gt a cold 4m wales as well so not very gd!!

on da saturday was 15th shaban so was msq n all dat...den on monday was 1st propa day of college! gt my timetable n had my first classes...i got A D n F code free wich means i start at 1.40 on monday n finish at 1.40 on fri :D hehe oh n was my 1^st tutorial with Helen lol n can u believe dat within 10minutes she was screwin at all of us!! Gd 2 b bak eh lol

on wed 13^th went 2 UCL for open day of London unis…saw Zahra rahim der wit her sista lol n found out dat she has da sm problem as me..every1 tinks her sista wants 2 go uni next yr but she’s already qualified lol..went wit my bro n den had pizza hut 2 lunch..bruv n sista day out :D wot fun lol

our first birthday as 2^nd yrs was on da 14^th of sept…Irani zeinab was da first one of us to turn 18 :D!! we all chipped in n got her sum gorgeous prezies n a cake…poor girl started cryin cos she was so overwhelmed!! Aww bless…loadsa fun but still aint gt da pix 4m HUDA!!! Lol

on Saturday 16^th was ucas seminar to help wit obviously our ucas lol n personal statements!! Was ok..but quite long…4m 3.30pm till 8pm at nyt!!! Had chinese 4 dinner n spring rolls!! :D yummy poor Zahra rahim dint wanna eat in public so she took her spring roll hm hehe…

oh had my chem. cwk da nxt week..wit da assesd practical in 1 lesson n eval n anal in da nxt…found out jus b4 half term dat I gt 19 outta 22 for dat :D quite gd if I say so myself!!

Unfortunately on Sunday 24^th September my grandmother passed away. She was 84 years old n da best!! As u can c I haven’t mentioned visiting her in da last few saturdays, which is wen we normally go round 2 visit. But I had a cold n dint wanna pass it onto them so dint c her or my bapa 4 aages!! N den on friday 22^nd my n my 2 sistas went 2 visit n we saw my uncle n aunty der as well..my aunty had cum 2 visit n take care of her n I hadn’t cn her yet so dats y I went…also my cold was still there but wasn’t as strong…luckily I gt 2 spend sum quality tym wit my nani n we had lots of jokes n fun…spent quite sum tym der… on saturday my mum went 2 visit n talked wit my nani as well…on dat saturday nyt I when I went 2 bed I was jus lying der tinking dat 2mw could b da 1^st of ramadhan, n I membad dat my dadima had died on da 1^st of muharram…I ignored dat feeling dat something was goin 2 happen n jus prayed 4 da best…on Sunday morning wen I woke up n found out dat my sista was goin 2 visit my nani I was jus soo relieved dat she was still alive n wot I had felt hadn’t come true..however jus a few mins l8r we gt a fone call 4 my mum to go there quickly as something was wrong…I knew instantly wot had happened n was devastated….my nani was buried on Monday n all her children came from around the world to c her one last tym…on Tuesday we went 2 da kabrastan wit my bapa…on Wednesday I was bak at college…it seemed lyk I hadn’t been 2 college in ages but in actual fact I had been der jus 4days ago..everythin had changed n it wud neva b da sm agen….

Ramadhan had started n we were goin msq every nyt n den 2 c my bapa n recite yaseen for my nani…in college everythin was normal..der was hwks n tests n I was kept bz…

Article

this is a really gd link to an article by a christian woman to muslim women...n its quite long but if I cud read it den im sure u can cos i neva read long essays or articles!!!

• Crescent and Cross

catch up l8r...college's started so quite bz!!

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